There is so much I want to say and so much that feels at stake.
Typically, I would give myself more space to process and move through my emotions but instead, I am choosing to share my truth, from my heart to yours.
As someone with a compromised immune system due to receiving a bone marrow transplant, I fall into the “at-risk” category for COVID-19. It is a reality that has brought up a lot of fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of what the future holds, and fear for those who also fall into the vulnerable and at-risk category.
The at-risk are not just the elderly or those with a compromised immune system. It includes those who do not have access to health insurance, who have lost their job, those at risk of losing their job, whose livelihood depends on their weekly paycheck and can’t work, kids whose only meal comes from being at school, those who feel unsafe in their homes and have nowhere else to go, doctors, nurses, and health practitioners on the front line, amongst many others.
I have also been experiencing a lot of unexpected emotions such as anger, sadness, and hurt at those who I have observed are not taking this seriously. Those who, for whatever reason, are not social distancing and/or self-isolating because it is an inconvenience or they don’t think this will affect them.
I have been doing a lot of meditating, praying, and journaling to find the strength within myself to have compassion and empathy for all because I know that each of us are doing the very best we can. I know that judging others for their experience only creates more separation and this is a time for unity. I have been reminding myself that I am only responsible for my actions and how I react.
Yet the truth remains that our infrastructure is not built to support a potential crisis of this nature and therefore we must remember our humanity and personal power. To protect each other by temporarily staying away from each other.
We are living through a period of time that future generations will read about. Our actions are meaningful. The choices we make have an impact. We have the opportunity to be on the right side of history and to take proactive action.
Social distancing and self-isolating can save lives.
If there was ever a time for us to come together, this is it. To get through this we must take responsibility for ourselves and recognize the importance each of our actions has on the trajectory of our collective future.
We will all remember the choices we made and the ways in which we showed up during this time.
Social distancing and self-isolating doesn’t mean disconnecting yourself from others, your emotions, love, and support. Now is not a time of reclusion, it is a time to come together. We need you, we need your voice, we need to stick together.
As a global community, we are infinitely connected. While we are each having our own experience and will process this time in our own ways, that doesn’t mean we have to do it alone.
Acknowledging our emotions whether they are our own or from the collective fear/pain/grief creates an opportunity for so much healing. These emotions are messengers communicating with us what we need to take care of ourselves.
I invite you to pause and check-in with yourself. What emotions are coming up for you? What do you need to feel supported?
There is a difference between allowing ourselves to move through our emotions and giving in to the fear. Each moment we have the choice to decide how we will react. While our emotions are real, so is the opportunity to be with community, connect with others, and both give and receive support.
To take care of the collective, we must first take care of ourselves.
There is no denying that we are in the midst of a powerful transformation on our planet. As we move through this time of global stillness and solitude, there is no right or wrong way to be.
I recommend being mindful of where you are getting your information, limiting your time online, taking care of yourself in the best ways you know how, utilizing your tools and practices and if you don’t yet have any, using this time to discover what they are.
Connect to your breath, spend time in stillness, journal your feelings, catch up on podcasts, take that course that has been on your list for ages, listen to music that uplifts your spirit. And most importantly, reach out for support when you need it.
To those who can’t self-isolate, whose livelihood depends on showing up, who are taking care of our communities, making the difficult decisions, and leading us through this time of uncertainty. We thank you from the bottom of our hearts.
I know this is uncomfortable. I know this is hard. Your experience, emotions, and feelings are valid and real.
We will get through this together.